A couple of weeks ago, I went to consult a fortune teller with my friends, just for the heck of it. Of course it's just us joking about, but I have been so lost the last few months that I felt it was some way of reeling myself in.
Most people would think I've gone mad -- why not talk to friends, go to church or just pick up a new hobby? Because I already know how those things go down. I wanted a completely different perspective, and that's exactly what I got.
Funny thing is, I was most curious about what the medium would say about my lovelife, which, as it turns out, something she can't see in my immediate future. As z-e-r-o. She saw a possible lesbian, but nothing more. She told me to focus on my fucking career.
With me getting my heart broken continiously since 2013, I'm resigning myself to doing just that.
I hate it when I hear the cliche that says "things happen for a reason." In my case, things don't happen, so I should stop waiting for things to change and just go fucking take control of my life. I've been lazy for far too long, waiting for Prince Charming to rescue me from my dull life.
Now, let's see if I can actually get off my ass to do anything about it.