I had a niggly feeling that my already poor eyesight is getting worse and that deciding to go to the optometrists over the weekend made me nervous. But as my eyeglass frame is already battered and very unpresentable, I've decided I should have my specs updated.
When the optometrist asked me to read the letters on the wall, they might as well have looked like this --
I can't read a thing!! Going for eye check-ups never fail to distress me.
The doctor tells me that my nearsightedness had gone down but my astigmatism had gone up a notch. I didn't know how to react -- should I be happy or disappointed? It seems like things are the same. Still, I'm thankful the readings aren't as bad as I thought they would be.
Sometimes, I feel like I want to see a lot of the world, read a lot of books and watch tons of films because I'm trying to cram everything in before I go completely blind. Right now, that is my worst fear. I'm not afraid that I may end up being a childless spinster or destitute, but losing my sight completely is what I feel would be the most tragic thing that could ever happen to me.
I may just be paranoid, but at least this fear is driving me to make the most out of my life.